01/10/2026

Tired

Hello everyone! This is my first blog entry on this website. I spent the whole day coding this website, actually. I really regret doing that. I could have listened to class recordings(I attend remote university) or studied. Well, I can make up for it by studying tomorrow! This was a fun distraction for a while.

My family came back from vacation yesterday, so I have been trying to adjust to that. It was so quiet home. Nobody was screaming at me or others. The dishes and dirty clothes didnt pile up everyday, either. Ah, I miss it. Well, at least they brought dragonfruit and clothes for me, so there’s a positive side as well.

Lately, I’ve been feeling bad out of the blue. I joined that one Tumblr vent group again and my guilt is eating away at me for it. I want someone to comfort me when I am feeling down, but that place also makes feel like an attention seeker, because I actually get excited when someone responds to me there. I guess it’s just the bad side of me that always wants to be a pitiful victim. In reality, I’m not a victim. I know that I am a bad person who hurts people’s feelings everyday and a burden on my family. Well, I guess I will try not to post there about my own life.

Sorry for being so negative!